Tuesday, November 29, 2016
A few weeks ago I felt inspired to self-study the text, which I find is dense and sometimes difficult to understand what its message is for me.
I have my notebook, where I take notes as I go along of what each paragraph's message means to me. I do this asking my Higher Self to guide and reveal to me what I need to learn.
So, each morning now I spend about 20-30 minutes with the Course text; it's been quite enriching. It's become clearer how important it is to be aware of my thoughts and beliefs at any given moment. I also realize how similar most spiritual teachings are at their core.
The Course states: "The correction of fear is your responsibility. When you ask for release from fear, you are implying that it is not." Chapter 2, VI.4, and it also states: "You are much too tolerant of mind wandering, and are passively condoning your mind's miscreations."
Oh my. Just these two statements feel so empowering to me. I am responsible for my mind wandering and for correction of fear.
Now, I can start to think that this is too hard, or not possible, or that I should see immediate results, But even this is a mind trick. I keep in mind that my old beliefs are deeply rooted and willingness and practice of these new concepts and principles will bring a new experience for me. A more joyful and real one.
I am never alone in my choice of perceiving a better way. My Higher Wisdom is always within me. I only need to ask.
Thursday, November 10, 2016
Needing to know how anything is going to turn out before I take a risk or make a decision confirms my desire to continue controlling outcomes, situations, relationships, and Life itself.
This hasn't worked out for me at all. I've had a tendency to over-analyze and over-think everything before taking any steps, believing things have to be perfect and in place. I have a fear of the unknown. I want to control how things will turn out. This has kept me stuck, resulting in losing out on wonderful challenges and hidden blessings.
I realize now that have no way of knowing or controlling how anything is going to turn out. No confirmation or assurance. I can only choose to trust. Trust that all is as it needs to be and move forward. Trust that I am taken care of!!!