Tuesday, June 29, 2010
After working on You University for a while, starting to see life as a school, not seeing myself as a victim anymore, my perception started to shift. With my friend indeed's help and support, I naturally began to feel lighter, happier, and each day I became aware of the simple and infinite things I had in my life to be grateful for. The shower, my health, my family, air conditioning, being able to choose my meals, walk and move my body painlessly, so so much....that I took for granted. I'm a better person to be around with, even for myself. I like life, I see life now as an experience and not as a struggle.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Maia, my friend in deed, is always present to support me on my life journey. She mirrors back to me what I need to know to heal and to grow in self trust. She's trustworthy, honest, motivates and inspires me to be the best I can be. She also reminds me of my commitments so I don't fall into procrastination. Do you have a friend in deed? It's necessary to have a support....not wise to do it alone.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Don’t get me wrong, being an Administrative Assistant is almost like being a mother/housewife…..only it’s in an office scenario. But it still is limiting if you don't always have a mentor as a boss. I have had very few of these in my career.
Now have a wonderful mentor, Maia Berens. She's great coaching, teaching and mentoring. And, I am a great learner.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Last night I went to bed when I felt sleepy, not with an imposed schedule. I decided to wake up this morning when I woke up, and not at a set time. I slept peacefully and woke up at 7:30 am.
I notice a voice within me that pushes me saying: you have to do this, you have to do that. This silly yet imposing inner voice creates anxiety in me.It almost feels like guilt, and rush. Its byproduct is stress. When I'm drinking my coffee in the morning, I feel its rush to get up, get moving, you have to do all these things....and the present enjoyment fades.
Now that I'm on no one's schedule but my own, since I'm not working at an office and don't have to be somewhere at someone else's time, I need to learn to enjoy my freedom and be present with whatever task I have at the moment.
For sooooo many years I've had to live within a schedule and rush around and not be late, and beat traffic, etc., that I feel guilty that I'm enjoying this new lifestyle.
Another thing this voice whispers to me is this: don't get used to this because it's not going to last very long. Start looking for work, time is passing by, you need to produce. I need to write a love letter to this voice.
And, this is a good post for the journal site and my blog.
Thanks for being here for me, ladies. I love you.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
I was just laid off from my job and my last day was May 28th. I’ve been working as an employee in different companies for more than 30 years. I have been looking forward to this time off in order to dedicate more of my time and energy to building my life coaching business and to be more involved in a life coach training school program, You University, with my life coach and its founder, Maia Berens, and a team of 3 other life coaches. I am very excited about this.
Instead, I tooke a two week vacation and visited my kids, grandkids and close friends in
Of course, I had little to no time to work at my business.
Why was I doing this? I have just taken 3 weeks time away from something that I claim is extremely important to me. Not that time with family for me isn’t a priority, but I have to ask myself these questions.
- Am I sabotaging myself by creating situations that call my attention elsewhere so I don’t focus on my true desires?
- If I had a job, would I have taken all this time off?
- How serious am I about creating my business?
- How much effort and time am I willing to dedicate to make it a reality? How committed am I to this?
- Am I again putting others’ wants and needs before my own?
The answers can only be found within myself. I can let fear of succeeding or failing sabotage me, or continue to go for what I want.