Monday, December 31, 2018

Reflecting on 2018

At the start of a new year, I write a list of my goals and intentions for that year. 

As I review my list for 2018, I realize I've accomplished many of the objectives I had on the list.  Not all my goals were met, but many of them were fulfilled! 

I had titled 2018 a year of TRANSFORMATION for me.  In this circle of transformation I had my eyes set on several areas of my life.

Spiritually (which is priority on my list) I have experienced a transformation (it gets better every year). I feel more at peace and happier than I ever have in my life.  During this year I deepened my study and practice of A Course in Miracles principles in my daily life and with my relationships; I have also stayed committed to meditating regularly and being aware of my thoughts and beliefs (not believing everything I think). I am also learning to trust more and surrender to the process of life vs. wanting things to be "my way".

There were also movements in my family which weren't on my list but have a lot to do with transformation.  My middle daughter, Deborah, moved with my granddaughter to Mexico (from Dominican Republic) in June.  That was a big change for them.  Then my son moved to Utah (from Miami) in September to start a new journey.

On the health side of things, I still have to work on this area of my life because I love food and I love sweets.  I did not reach my weight goal.  But this is one of my objectives in the new year.  I have finally stayed on track exercising 5 days a week.  I joined and attend a Pilates Club 3 times a week and I bike and do home yoga.  I feel good about this!

As for my purpose/life project, this is a work in progress.  I am learning so much as I work together with my YOU University colleagues to expand our reach of this wonderful program.  I love this kind of work (coaching, training); I also officiated several ceremonies this year as an ordained minister.  My purpose is to be light, to teach what I need to learn, and to continue on this path into the new year. 

I feel I become more of who I truly am with each passing year, each passing month, each passing day!

I already started my list for 2019.  HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Friday, December 28, 2018

Trusting the Process

For the past few months I've had for sale an apartment I own in the Dominican Republic and last week I traveled there to sign a contract with a buyer.

Initially, I had someone there in charge of selling it, but it seemed they were not putting much effort and time into the process.  A friend there recommended another real estate agent as being very knowledgeable and aggressive. So I hired her.

I had been praying throughout this time for God to provide the right help and the right buyer and to bless the process. 

Within a month's time she found an interested buyer and the process began.  Upon signing the contract and receiving the first payment, what I believed would be a smooth process became a very challenging one.  First, we encountered issues with my documentation.  Not having a permanent residency there anymore since I moved back to the US, slowed the whole process.  Dealing with the bank and government offices to process payment and taxes became a real struggle. Even issues with the original title have had to be addressed.  I never imagined this!!! Lawyers, money, time, confusion.  OMG.   Of course, I began to feel disappointed, frustrated, and stressed out.

Now back home in the US, I've continued working at a distance with the agent and lawyers there resolving  these issues.  I began to feel fear of losing the opportunity to sell to this buyer; having already paid the 5% commission from the initial down payment.  And fear of losing a lot of money. 

I had to face the fear head on!!!  I remembered I had prayed and I needed to trust God in this process. Since that moment that I decided to shift my focus from the fear to God, I feel much more at peace and confident that all will work out as it is supposed to.  I don't know how it will transpire, but I trust it will be as it should.  Even though feelings of doubt do come up, I choose each time to trust.  And I really do feel peaceful about it all.  It's like resting and allowing and giving it over to my Higher Power.