Monday, June 23, 2014
Every morning I wake up and prepare myself a cup of coffee with milk and I use 3 teaspoons of turbonated sugar (this is what we Latinos call cafe con leche).
So, I bought organic Half & Half (just 1gram of sugar) and Splenda instead of sugar just for this week.
I noticed as soon as I woke up that inner voice suggesting "Go ahead, you can have the sugar. Aw come on, it's just 45 calories and it will taste way better than the Splenda. I give you permission."
I caught myself, I observed what was going on in my head instead of just giving in to this suggestion. Having the sugar seemed like an insignificant thing to do, what the hell. But I understood that once again, giving in would feel like I was breaking an agreement I had already made with myself, and would open up the door to just continuing doing so. I know how that feels. It feels like I'm not that important to myself. I don't do that with other people. Yet, I easily do it with myself, all of the time. In just little things....I don't exercise when I say I am. I eat what I have beforehand decided not to.
I chose to honor my commitment. I intend to do so for the rest of the day, and for the rest of the week. Sticking to this decision and agreement makes me feel grounded. I acknowledge myself and honor my choices and my self-care. It's simple and yet profound. For me, this is one small step in my practice of honoring Me.
More about me: Savina Cavallo, YOU University Life Coach, Radical Self Acceptance