God Wants Us To Be Happy

Today's A Course in Miracles lesson #74 is titled THERE IS NO WILL BUT GOD'S. 

Seems so simple and yet my mind can create complexity around this basic, true principle. What is God's Will for all of us but that we be happy?  That we trust, know we are cared for, we are eternal, that His Kingdom is within us and not in the seeming world "out there". 

I can testify that reading, contemplating on and practicing each daily lesson in my everyday life has shifted my experience as Savina.

How so?  Well, whenever I become aware of any old ego thought and emotion I'm experiencing (and I can tell by how I'm feeling....crappy), I have the discipline to notice it and remind myself of what I am learning.  It's really an unlearning of those old concepts and applying the new ones.  It may sound like brain-washing, but I don't care what it seems like.  The proof is in how I am feeling. 

Am I happier?  Yes!  Am I experiencing more peace and joy?  Yes! Is there less conflict and drama in my mind and life?  Absolutely. Anxiety?  Minimal.  (I dealt with anxiety and depression for years). I trust God (and myself) way more than I have ever in the past. It all starts right there, in my mind. In my thoughts.

So, I don't doubt the principles anymore because they work.  I still have "stuff" to heal in me. They come up like bubbles in water. Undoing a lifetime of fear-based beliefs is an on-going practice. But I am soooo loving this awakening process. 

Our Thoughts Have Power

These are statements from A Course in Miracles workbook lessons.  I’ve read through them many, many times in the past 11 years as a student of this spiritual path.  But it’s now that I am dedicated to practicing them deeply and am experiencing their effects. Good ones!

Living these principles is not the same as knowing them. They really challenge my thought system. I’ve known them but now I am better at living them.  So, whenever I feel uneasy, afraid, unworthy, less than, defensive, any yucky stuff, I am much quicker at catching the thought creating these feelings as soon as it arises.  I remind myself of the truth of my being, and I let it go. Often it takes several times going through this process, but it works the same.  

I know that if I hold on to this thought/belief it will eventually produce some kind of effect in the world I see and affect me directly.  I choose peace.

Being With Myself

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Sometimes, if not many times, I am overwhelmed by all the noise and excessive stimuli that captures my attention continuously.  It comes from social media on my iPhone or computer, from TV commercials, even in the mail I receive numerous offers....so much to read, to listen to, and to filter out.

But t's really up to me to choose what to allow into my awareness and what to filter out.  

Think on These Things is a book based on lectures by Jiddu Krishnamurti that I read many years ago. He pointed out how difficult it is for many of us to be with ourselves in a quiet environment, such as under a tree in Nature.  To just sit there.  He continued to point out how we have to have some kind of external stimulus all the time. We read a book, we turn on the TV or radio, get on our computer or iPhone to connect with social media..... in order to not feel alone?  

So, I remember that a lot and lately I'm practicing sitting in my bedroom or living room with no book, no music, no computer, no TV.  Just still, quiet...and be, for a few minutes here and there.  I'm not meditating, I'm just being with myself and paying attention.  

I admit it feels different.  It's a nice, positive feeling.  Freeing.

Observing What's Going on in My Head

As an observer of my thoughts, attitudes and feelings, (a practice I took on much more actively in the past few months) I "see" or identify more and more my conditioning, judgments and negative assumptions.  So many in just one day.  In one hour.

I used to wonder why I was never in joy and feeling happy in the past.  I have discovered the reason.  What goes on in my head has been rampantly running my life, affecting my well-being and keeping me in a low-level vibration for years.

I was confirmed Monday of last week my last day at work..... in 30 days.  After that, I'm unemployed.  I have to say, I felt a bit shocked.  I walked out of the room feeling a bit numb, then as the hours and days progressed feelings of resentment, comparison with my other co-workers (who will stay until end of year) surfaced and that fact put my focus on my boss making him into the bad guy.  I observed how I was feeling resentful towards him and that it was his fault and he didn't try to keep me on.  Of course, then the ego began whispering that I'm not good enough.....etc., etc., etc.

I did allow myself to feel these feelings.....what has been different is observation.  Observing takes me from feeling a victim to being an empowered being.  Knowledge.  I'm beginning to perceive what is going on in my head and I can change it.  This is on-going, and takes awareness on my part.

To be continued.....